This is the Sausagey Sailor, reporting for duty.
You’ll be pleased to know that while at the market on Saturday morning I resisted the temptation to purchase a mammoth sticky bun because I thought, “I promised my readers I wouldn’t go over my Points again. I don’t want to let them down.”
But by the time the afternoon rolled around and I was pushing a whining, blubbering, screaming, teething toddler down main street I could not help but veer into the bakery and buy an apple fritter. I rationalized, “Technically, it’s for Avelyn. She needs a little something to help calm her down and take her mind off the rising molars wreaking havoc on her gumline.” So I ripped off a little hunk for her and she felt better. Then I inhaled the rest of it.  And I felt better too. For about three seconds, then I wanted to cry. I know it doesn’t sound like much but I really felt like I had failed. I kind of stuck to my Points for the rest of the weekend but overall it was a rough go.
Here we go again….a new week and I am back on track. I really do feel better when I stick to the plan and I need to remember that feeling like a bloated mess just isn’t worth it, no matter how good the apple fritter may be.
It’s official:Â I’m human.
I’ve been feeling a little overwhelmed these days. There’s lots going on and I am a bit more emotionally fragile than usual. I hate it when I’m like this. I know it will pass but while I’m in the thick of it, that’s hard to remember.
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Hey, you ARE human and its OK. You are totally aware of what you are eating and you only went off a small bit…so don’t beat yourself up about it. But, I understand. Everything starts small. And it is so danged hard!!! It is such a fight to maintain your ground – that weight you’ve lost. Believe me, I’m living it right now….it is a daily, no, sometimes hourly battle to resist those things.
Anyway, you really do look GREAT and your doing well. So, keep it up and chin up Amanda!
We can do it together! Only one more short month till the best weekend evah! You should call shotgun already!
Hey Amanda….First off you are beautiful…and believe me I totally understand the roller coaster of weight first hand…my only concern is that your negativity towards your body is going to start affecting your beautiful baby girl…So show her that you are doing the best you can for your body with exercise and eating healthy foods (and letting yourself be human having those no so good foods in moderation)but don’t obsess…your doing great….
now that I’m not breastfeeding as much I’m noticing the cookies and donuts are starting to stick on me but I’m hungry all the time. Thank you for making me feel like this is normal and there’s not something seriously wrong with me. And if my boss comes into my office and catches me eating my lunch at 9am and makes fun of me again I think I will cry!
(I’m also emotionally fragile these days – wonder what’s in the air).
A friend of mine has been on Weight Watchers for a year now, and is looks just amazing. She just made her WW blog public… http://msbitchcakes.blogspot.com/
She is the first person to say that she is not perfect with this program. She just keeps trying! I hate struggling with my weight, and it helps me to read about other people’s struggles because then I know I’m not alone!
One of the important things to remember about Weight Watchers is that it is not only about counting points and losing weight. Another goal is to make yourself aware of what you are putting in your mouth. Even though you ate the apple fritter, you know that it put you over in points and that you don’t want to do that all the time. So don’t beat yourself up over blown points. There’s always tomorrow. Besides, give yourself a big pat on the back for recognizing what you are eating and how it’s going to most likely make you feel.
when I am having a hard time with things and feel particularly emotional, I remind myself not to make any life changing decisions (very important!) and I just try my best to ride it out. And if I feel like eating my weight in cookies (which I just did) then that’s what I do. And then I will feel bloated and never want to eat another cookie for the rest of my life … or at least for the next hour or so.
I just try and be gentle with myself and not fight it. I sometimes even say hello to it, like … “hey crabby girl. nice to see you again. will you be staying for a while?” and then I just let her do her thing and wait for her to get bored and move on, so to speak. :)
Anyhoo … you are entitled to bad days, especially after you have been working so hard to reach your goal. You have been kicking butt for a while now and should be very proud … let yourself be “less together” for a while and embrace it, if you can. It’s temporary and you have the support of the entire cyber world behind you … or at least the many of us who read your blog. :)
Hope it passes soon.
My motto is “nothing tastes as good as thin feels.” Or think about the hours of excercise that you would have to do just to balance out the points of the fritter…let’s be honest…nobody has that amount of extra time. Glad to see you’re back on track. Keep at it. You look great!
I too think you look smashing! Emotional fragility is always hard to deal with, but I know you have a tonne of friends who care lots for you and a phone call/email feels just as good as a fritter. And you are human. I like to remember that I’ve heard that Arnold Schwar(I can’t spell it), when he was Mr. Universe would eat every piece of junk he wanted to one day a week and stick to his diet the other 6. He claimed it was his path to success. Everybody needs what they need. Hope you have a great successful week!
You should read “You on a diet” by Dr. Oz….
Good for you for keeping on it even when you think that you “failed” or “cheated”. Lots of people don’t even have the courage to start, and even more probably decide to quit with the first fall off of the wagon. I commend you for sticking to it even when you had a bad weekend – because we all have those once in a while. By the way, you’re looking great!
It’s hard to stay on track! I’m back on the wagon, so to speak, with three full days of 18-points. When I’m really sticking to the plan, it feels good, but I have to get past the five-day stretch in order to continue. So here’s hoping: 7 more postpartum pounds to go, but they can be the most challenging!
I hope you’re feeling less overwhelmed these days. And you, my dear, are as un-sausage-like (I don’t know the correct formatting for that word. I admit it.) as possible.
I’m strugggggling with WW. But every time I visit you, I feel a little more empowered with my weight loss.
Thank you.
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