She’s started waking up in the night again. A different time each night, but she can’t seem to make it till morning without crying out for me. So, I go get her, a little peeved that she’s fallen back into this habit after I worked so long to break her of it. She is standing in her crib, footed jammies all bunched up and she’s holding onto the rails, howling. I flick on the lamplight, whisper her name, then pick her up. She’s so big now, and I rest her on my hip and she lays her head on my shoulder. Together we walk to the living room where we sit on the couch, after I’ve topped up her bottle with a fresh splash of milk, and she falls into the crook of my arm. Her eyes look small and tired as they gaze up at me through the darkness, and I watch her lids grow heavy as she so easily accepts the comfort that surrounds her. She is safe, she is loved, she is here with me and that’s all she needs to fall back asleep. I see the bright moon through the window, shining down on the moment we’re in: me, in my homely housecoat, holding my last baby who is getting bigger by the hour, and neither of us will ever be this young again.
Too fast, all of it.
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Aww. Way to savour it. Hope it doesn’t last long though…
This gave me goosebumps…
It’s so true, and similar to how I’ve been feeling lately. Through the craziness of life with small children you sense the slipping away of the precious moments…that my little girl’s feet will never be this small again…that I will never again hold a newborn (of mine)for the first time…it brings tears as one fights to savour the beauty of the moments through the sleep deprivation and stress…
*sigh*
You beautifully captured a poignant moment.
Awwwwwww, so sweet.
You make me want to have a little one again despite the middle of the night wake ups.
Thank u for this post, I have been following you since your 1st daughter, love your writing, and love how I can relate to you on so many levels.
What a beautiful moment. I cheris all of these with my little man.
BEAUTIFUL and so exactly real. Wow, Life!
sob!
I’ll try to remember this post tonight when I’m doing the same thing. Tis sweet, if I can just remember that as I’m stumbling around in the dark.
LOVE this. That was me last night and I totally gave into the moment. I know and have heard of too many people lately who aren’t able to tuck in their babies because they are in the hospital or no longer with us and last night I felt extra lucky.
Beautifully written.
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